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My Bipolar Diary VI: New Antidepressants

I haven't written quiet awhile about my bipolar journey - I think my depression really gets me drowned into a dark pit. I have been in low moods, low appettite, constant anxiety for a month and more now - reason why I stopped blooging my experience.

To a lot of people, opening up about mental health condition isn't an easy thing, especially to people that you love, solely because you don't want to burden them with your "small" issues. I always think that my problem is small, crying, whining, frustration, blankness as something that I shouldn't talk with anyone, just because other people had it worst than me, but they managed it well.

But I came across one article the other day telling me - everyone have their own limit and capacity of managing stress. Yours is smaller, but that's okay. You will thrive and get through it by time. Time will heal, of course.

So I went for my last appointment with my psychiatrist today - and I got prescribed with an antidepresssants - Escitalopram. I googled it to know more about my meds before I did something wrong or take my doses wrong (haha!)

So escitalopram is used for treating depression or generalized anxiety disorder. It may also be used for other conditions as determined by your doctor. Escitalopram is a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI). It works by restoring the balance of serotonin, a natural substance in the brain, which helps to improve certain mood problems.

I was prescribed to take this pill once a day - I think to boost my moods because sometimes things get worse and I'm moody all the time. Let's see how things works for me in next two months!


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