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My Bipolar Diary V: My Ups and Downs (Part 1)


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Diagnosed with bipolar disorder had made me learn about my body and my mood and how I react a lot. I realised that my racing thoughts, sleepless night are something and not just part of the things I had to face at school and and at work.

Having it means - having hypomania:
  • happy, euphoric, with a sense of wellbeing
  • lots of energy
  • sociable
  • racing thoughts
  • creative and full of ideas and plans
  • like you can perform tasks better and more quickly than normal
  • impatient, irritable or angry
  • confident, with high self-esteem
  • attractive, flirtatious and/or with more sexual desire
  • restless, on edge and having difficulty relaxing
  • heightened senses – colours may seem brighter, sounds louder and things more beautiful

How I reacted during hypomania:

  • more active than usual
  • taking risks
  • very friendly
  • very talkative or writing a lot
  • sleeping very little
  • signing up for and taking part in lots of activities
  • taking on extra responsibilities
  • wearing colourful and/or extravagant clothes
  • making lots of jokes and puns
  • finding it hard to stay still - moving around a lot or fidgeting


This phase can last a week or two, but as soon as it finished I can be really tired. I will be in a black hole named depression and these period feels like forever. Having bipolar disorder, for me, means I had to go to certain extremes at time and I can never look back.

Anyone else having hypomania or mania? Share in the comments!

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