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My Bipolar Diary III: How Do You Know that You are Depressed?

The first time I met the doctor, more than a month ago, the doctor ask significant questions to me.

I think I have depression.


Since when? - Last year.

Why do you only seek for help now? - Because I think it would go away. It never leaves, since.

What about your sleeping pattern? - Very bad, I hardly fall asleep at night.

How about your mood? - Bad in the morning. Easily annoyed. Get angr real quick.

Let's go back to your sleeping pattern. How many hours do you sleep? - 4-5 hours.

At what time did you go to bed? - 10 pm.

What time did you fall asleep? - 2 - 3 am.

Do you wake up in the mid of sleeping? - Yeah.

Do you have episodes where you are extremely happy and extremely sad? - Most of the time.

How you doing at work? - OK.

And few series of question was continuously asking about my daily mood.

It goes back to my depressive episode, anger fit and everything that has been haunting me. Last year was the peak of everything and soon that I realised I need help.

I was thankful and privileged enough to be diagnosed and prescribed with medicines that help me cope with my mental illness.

I'm sharing about mental health so that more people would come forward and know that you are not alone in facing the down turn of your life.


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