My Bipolar Diary V: My Ups and Downs (Part 2)

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Previously I talk about my ups (overly excited and joyful, bright side of me) but we haven't got into what monster I can be during my downs (depressive, dull and empty episodes).

Source: About Bipolar Depression

Bipolar depression has the same “low” symptoms as depression:

Prolonged sadness, depressed mood, or unexplained crying spells
No interest in activities you once enjoyed
Loss of energy
Difficulties with sleep—either sleeping too much or not at all
Changes in appetite—significant weight gain or weight loss
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
Thoughts of death or suicide

In my lows, I had to spend more time, which usually last around one or two weeks. I sleep a lot and those are the thing that affect me the most.

Suicidal thoughts? Most of the time. It's the emptiness of the feeling that kills me slowly. I don't want to feel empty and sad and misery, and most of the time I lay in bed blinking and hoping I will feel happy or dead, there's no in between.

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