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Choices

The choices we made sometimes, is something that people doesn't favor us to do. But isn't choosing is up to us who is going to decide? I'm heartbroken right now because my decision is something that my family wouldn't favor from me, and it's upsetting to know that everyone is bombing me with words that bring me down -- trust me, I faced that for 21 years, 6 months, and 20 days now.

For mom, I am sorry I am an ungrateful child who wouldn't listen to you for the first time in my life. I know I've never done this. I know you take care of me too much since I was born, but this is the time to be independent. This is the time to be someone else. It's not the matter of age, it's the matter of choices that I made that had thoroughly hurt you, and I'm aware of that. I am sorry, but please, have faith in me.

To everyone else who tried to decide for me, this is MY decision. I will take the risk out of my decision. I wanted to do this, and this is my dream. I hope I can be something useful to the society in the future.

To friends that has been continuously supporting me throughout this journey; thank you so much. I never wanted more from God. This is just a blessing. 

I 
am
so 
tired 
and 
depressed 
throughout 
this 
journey 
alone.



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