Herinza Syadza

This gathering - is a fest is a meeting is a confession of broken hearts of broken promises of massive mistrusts of people who have been silenced This gathering - is a tribute is a progress is a protest of people who deserve better of people who had enough of people who fed up This gathering isn't just a gathering It is faith It is belief To democracy we have put our compass on Towards New Malaysia we put our destination on

Of morning coffee - I can't wake up less cranky Or feeling very edgy Like a branch that breaks from a tree Of coffee dusts - that pour into the mug this feeling sucks man you know I would rather laugh Of stale bread My lips frown and sad My shoulders wanted a pat "Hey! You're doing okay mate?" I just want to feel lively again I just want to feel my brain Working without pain and just without strain - hereenza

When I was a kid, I will faint when my mum bring me to the wet market (because there is a lot of people)! Also, when my father wants me to order food in the cafe, I will die inside and try to avoid the situation. Most people think I'm arrogant. But the real thing is: I grow up as an introvert for a long time. I isolate myself from people, most of the time.But as time evolves, I break through the barrier by joining debate, and became the ace of the team. Same goes to university. And then I go through this "exhaustion and silence" period where I caught up with depression; insomnia, difficulties to wake up, mental breakdowns, emotional outbursts and things gets out of hand, for more than 2 years, while trying to jumble up and down with my academics. I can never explain myself why I failed and why I cannot perform in classes and exams, yet I tried because I went back over and over again to my mother's repetitive advice. I just need to graduate from my univers...

I woke up on the morning of the day when I turned 21, and then went straight to the post office to register as a voter. To me, the real birth of a citizen in a democratic country is to be able to register as a voter and to vote during elections. And then I wonder, how many of Malaysia’s citizens are not registered as voters and care to vote during elections, while many of us vent our disappointment towards our leaders but are not willing to make any change through one single ballot paper that means everything to our future. While there are people who lives in rural area, in places hard to access and can only be accessed through rivers, who are dying to register as voters and aspire to change their future, more than half of the population of in the urban areas don’t care to register as voter and do their part as citizen of the country. Are we ignorant or are we just whiners? Walk the talk, because you know that action speaks louder than words. There are two groups of people who ...

It is common to expect someone to fit your standard when you started dating them. When you started talking and you found this " chemistry " thing and you said oh, they are the one ! It is common to feel like you found your life complete with that person beside you. Nope, not until you met the monster within them. It is easier to love someone when they are happy at 3 p.m, but when they break downs at 3 a.m and the world silenced them, you will turn your back against them. They are ugly creatures, and you don't know what to do with their mind. It is frustrating. Your presence in their life has give them purpose to finally living. Maybe not that big, but it's still a reason. To stop harming themselves. To stop having suicidal thoughts. To stop them to overthink. To say that a person is not struggling with their monster which lives inside them, you are not worth it. It's not the person who have less value because they are mentally ill, it's the person who t...

Charismatic leaders has high trust and very popular among the people. Thus, when he or she calls for something, people actually did it. But the difference between charismatic leaders and tyranny is they don't use fear and threat to their people. They did it with angel voices. In Malaysia, I think there's a lot of charismatic leaders. In times like this, the people hope for them to be the saviour. Truth is, leaders are not heroes. They are doing their job to lead and tell the people what they should do. Work for better future. The only hero in Malaysian politics is the people. If the people choose to wake up and walk towards democracy, that how it works. Too much idolizing of politicians and public figure is detrimental to politics because the people couldn't stand alone for themselves. I get annoyed when people admire certain politicians/public figure so bad. Yes, you could be their number one fan, but they are doing their job. They are serving the people because t...